School's gonna end and holidays are gonna start . I feel like I'm losing friends . I don't know why . They treat me differently and not like before . That's what I notice these few days . Well usually,I'll be otp or messaging someone at this time but now,there's no one texting or calling me . There is but only for awhile . If there is something about me or what I did that y'all dislike besides _______,please tell me . Is it because of my appearances ? My attitude ? Or did I said something to you and you get offended ? I really want to know . I'm only here just to tell you guys to what I've been noticing recently . I'm not here to blame anyone . Please,don't be angry . Sometimes I felt like I'm left out from you guys and I'll always feel that as if I'm always the odd one from you guys .
And I swear I kept on thinking about this and when I think about it,I'll defitnitely break down . I even think thrice about posting this . I really don't want to lose my beloved friends of mine . You guys are the best . Please don't neglect me as I won't forget you guys . I'm extremely sorry to what I did recently,I'll try to stop .
I love you,guys .
With loads of love, ARDILLA .
27.10.09 11:46 PM ...
I really,really,really need someone to talk to . Someone who can be trusted . I don't mind whether it's a girl or a boy . All I need is someone to talk to .
25.10.09 5:44 PM ...
Hello .
Was on the phone four times today . ;D Firstly , conference with susok and sab . Secondly , sab alone . Thirdly , farhan . And fourthly , sab again . Haha . Great huh ? I get bored easily . Heh . Kay , there's school tomr . Sab and I decided to go to school late . Dtg pagy2 pon buat aperh kan . Oh ya ! It's gonna be the last week of school . I am so gonna miss you all . *sobsob* Gonna miss all the fun we had . And I can't wait for class outing . Combining with 105 ? Erm , maybe .
Oh and btw , today is Khairiyah's birthday .
Happy 13th Birthday , Khairiyah !
Best of luck in whatever future awaits .
I love you . Stay cute & pretty aites ;D
With love ,
Ardilla
23.10.09 8:07 PM ...
Hello , readers .
Dilla mendaq larh ! No one to text or call . Haizx . So , get my english , maths and malay results . I passed all . But ,I'm not satisfied with the results . Now left with Literature and Art results . Tarq derh confident siol untok literature . Art's okay . There's no doubt about art . Art was somehow troublesome as I need to do alot of things before the exam . So yeah , did art with Sabrina under a block . And went home at night . Yet , it was not finished .
The day after that me and Sabrina went to the library to finish it up . Half-way doing it , Hakeem , Farhan and Ali came to us . At that point of time , me and Sabrina stopped doing our art . Paiseyh sia narq tunjokkan art kte . Haha . Awhile later , susok came . So , drg2 maen card . Satu2 buat hal sendiri . Heh . After that , Erra , Ila and Syaz came . Had a looked at each of our art piece . Blablabla .. Ate at mac with Syaz and Sab . And headed home after that .
Today , ate at one coffee shop with my usual clique after school . Decided to eat prata beyh prata tarq derh . Nehmind larh , beyh narq makan MURTABAK . MURTABAK pon tarq derh . Last2 , makan mee goreng . Bought two plate of it . Starting2 , pkeh satu pinggan $2.50 . Beyh check2 $3.50 . Wth kan ? After that , slacked for awhile and went home . Seha and Sab saw ___ at Tamp Inter . Not fair sia . D'''=
Bye . Love ya' ! ;D
22.10.09 11:10 PM ...
Hey .
Dilla's back . Like finally , EOY are over . I'm so so nervous about my results . Get back my Maths ( Section A ) and science back . Passed both . I really hope I pass the rest of my subjects . Kay , I don't want elaborate about my exams .
So , spent my weekends having a meet-ups with peeps . Oh , my god ! Next week is the last week of school ! I'm so gonna miss you all , esp the loved ones . I bet I'll be rotting at home during school holidays . It's gonna be effing bored .
Currently otp with Ila Sewel .
Kay da , bye ;D I've got nothing to say . Sorry aye .
13.10.09 9:49 PM ...
Hey .
I actually decided to update my blog after EOY are over . But now , I've got something to talk about . I just can't stop thinking about it . Somehow , I'm pissed off . I've just lost one of my bestfriend because of this person . I'm not gonna tell who . You must know who you are . I'm not finding faults but I want to tell the truth . Because of you , i lost him . And for your info. , we've stopped contacting each other . Great , isn't it ? These past few days , you two had been so close . No , I'm not jealous and I'm not trying to tell you to stop being close with him . Yeah , I don't mind . Once again , I'm not finding faults or whatsoever . This is just facts .
You told us that we're always by your side and went through your ups & downs together . But now , you treat us as one of your casual friends and not your loved ones anymore . My dear , you've changed alot . Yes , it's obvious .
And you , my bestfriend , this is not the first time . Kau sendiri pon tawu kan . Please , please , learn how to balance . I know you've neglected me . But so far , you're the greatest bestfriend . You're the one whom I always tell secrets to . And I hope my secrets are save with you . If you think , I'm not a trust worthy person . I'm fine with that but the 'thing' you said to us was hurtful , didn't you know that ? And of course , I must tell them . You even talked behind my back . Yes , someone told me . And please don't be angry at her . That's the right thing to do . I'd never scold vulgarities to you before . And if I did , I was just kidding .
And now , since you said I'm not considered as your 'bestfriend' anymore just because of one fucking thing , fine then . You said that you've lost your bestfriend . Kae wait , who the fucking hell started it first ? You don't bother saying 'sorry' after saying us stuffs . But in the end ...
I really , really , really want the 'old' you and her back .
Taqqaire aites .
3.10.09 2:40 PM ...
Hey . I will be blogging as usual when EOY are over . And will also upload Hari Raya's pictures later as most of them are with Amirah. I won't be replying your tags . Busy uhq . Phm2 ay . Bye .
